My other self talks to me
Amidst the silence of these lonely nights,
My other self talks to me of events and days undefined.
Of the time wen I used to feel so blue,
Where nothing was fair 
N nothing was true
I was kicked, I was stabbed 
I was hurt, I was nagged.
Of cynicism I developed over the years,
For the world was nothing but just so weird.
Of the moments of smiles
And the days of tears
Of the wonderful times that were so very near...
I enjoy these conversations that make me feel so full of flesh,
For who knows me better,
Than my other self..

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Celebrating silence
That has engulfed my heart,
The voices
Muddling up in my head
Unable to find an escape.
Stoic me
Turning down all the ways
To complacency.
What a test of patience,
Feelings buried deep inside
The ground of expectations.
Waking up from the reverie,
Landing foot deep in reality,
My soul weep in an unknown land,
With dreams of wandering
Holding a loving hand...

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Beneath the shadow of burning time
There lies many stories undefined.

Stories of laughter
Stories of pain
Stories of loss 
Stories of gain.

Stories woven with smiles and fears
Stories which give you
Nothing but tears.

Each story is distinctive,
Where memories rewind.
Plays with your heart 
Makes you lose your mind.

Some get ears,
While some just make their way 
Silently through the eyes.

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From the skies above
Descends a maiden sublime,
Laden with Pearls
And the aura so divine.

Slowly she made her way
Through those dusty lanes.

Who was she?
What was it
That made the
Beauty of such
Class and grandeur
Walk those pebbled roads?
Wondered each soul.

What was it
That her eyes
Searched for?
A prince?
A sage?
Or a man
Equally divine?
It was beyond the reach of
Mortals to comprehend.

A mystery
She was,
Awaiting to be explored
A riddle
To be solved,
A question
Waiting to be answered.
A desire 
She was
Of every eye that followed.

And she,
She left them all
Only to disappear
Into those
Thick white clouds.

Looking for a new abode
Searching a new destination,
Deserving and peaceful.

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Eyes met
Words ceased to come out,
Emotions traveled
right from the heart
to be reflected through spark in the eyes
And smile on the lips.
How beautiful can be the voice of silence
All was expressed
Noting was said…

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I have told you this a 100 times for now,
yet I will say innumerous times more
Nothing I hold in my heart for you,
Nothing but love.

Every bit of it is true,
Every feeling,
Every emotion,
Every word I say to you.

Your smile is a reason to hope
Your eyes, holds the answer to every question in my heart
Your touch, a doorway to heaven
Your words, soothing eternal music,
melodious enough to travel all the way to my soul.
Your presence, the reason behind every smile 
that adorns my lips. 

I can hear our hearts beating fast
When our bodies come in unison
The smell of your skin,
The sound of your breath,
The way you caress
My fragile heart

Enough reasons you have,
to keep me going
With your presence.
Enough reasons I have,
to not stop myself
from falling in love
with nothing and noone
but you..

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She raised her eyelids
slowly n gradually

To fill her eyes
with the serenity 
lingering on his face.

A small smile began
to dance on her lips
as she
beheld the sight
she always
dreamt of.

The innocence,
the truth,
the touch of love
has all swept her
off her feet.

Now she lay
calmly there
in his arms
that means
the world to her.

Dreaming of nothing
but a better tomorrow...

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Walking, was I,
Making way through those crowded lanes,
Surrounded by many,
yet so lonely.
So fragile
So vulnerable
Was my little presence
In that cruel heartless mob.

It mattered to none
The true reason of my existence
or for that matter,
My existence itself..

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So, I complete 27 years of my mortal existence today. 30th June 1986, I was born on a day that divides year into half :P. Don’t know but being 27 seems like a big thing. But as they say, age is just a number. If I see my life from last birthday to this, a lot has changed. Lost dad, which is something irreplaceable and was a sudden blow. Got engaged recently, which is another life changing event.

I learnt a lot of things in past one year (some of which I already knew, but never paid attention to or used to take them for granted). Learnt to value my loved ones more, learnt to say all the good things I hold in my heart for people I love, learnt that nothing lasts forever, learnt to make memories and cherish them and value life a little more, became a little less fearful about things, learnt that life is all about survival, being patient and being strong. Feel a lot stronger from outside and at the same time a lot weaker from inside, learnt to control my emotions, learnt to spread more happiness around, learnt that negativity leads to nothing but more negativity.

Still a lot needs to be learned and still a lot of things need improvement. Going forward, I see a lot of big changes coming my way. Hope I keep pace and adapt to them and do all my duties and responsibilities to the best of my capabilities. 

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Standing by the window
Gazing at the infinite sky
Leaves rustling,
Clouds thundering,
Pearl drops falling 
touching the 
Ever so 
Thirsty land.
The gentle cold breeze
Sending ripples through
The whole of
My existence

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Took a much needed complete day off from work and was really in no mood even to open laptop. But then, can't live without it either. That shows how technology can completely enslave us.

Last 2 days were really bad. Nothing went wrong and nothing bad happened, don't know what has got into me. Total blankness, was completely clueless, depressed and directionless. Mind was completely messed up and was flooded with so many thoughts that I could not even comprehend. And worst, I could not even find a specific reason, why that was happening. Nothing was proving to be of help, reading, tv, going out, music ( that was only bringing uncontrollable tears, huh!!!),  talking with friends ( I feel so sorry, they tried so much to make  me understand, but idiotic mind was not accepting any reason), tried everything to keep my mind diverted, but all in vain. I hate to see some thoughts taking so much control over my mind.

But today I woke up feeling a little better, after battling with myself for complete 2 days. Some battles have to be fought alone, some struggles are only for you to take. This always makes my belief stronger that nothing lasts forever, happiness and not even pain.

Ordered 3 more books to read ( hope they deliver it soon, can't wait). I want this phase to end soon, I know if I survived through this one ( like many others), it will only make me a better person. And I know I will.

I have had many such phases, ( life was never a piece of cake ) and I somehow found ways to get out of them, feeling better and stronger. I have become a bit cynical and a bit apprehensive towards a lot of things ( I never was and never will be perfect).

Life has always been a roller coaster ride, but still if I am alive today, that means I have survived everything that was being presented to me, good or bad. I many a times feel I have become immune to pain and suffering, coz there are times when things happen and I don't feel a thing. But phases like these remind me I am still human and I am still capable of feeling pain.

Need to rest my mind a bit I guess, so that I will be alive and kicking, full of life ( the one thing people love me for). I trip, I fall, get hurt, get up and start to walk again. I guess that is the beauty of being a human. Let the pain and suffering rest in some part of my heart till it finds a way to be released. Voids are always going to be there, of some or the other kind. Trying to find happiness in whatever I possess.

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When as a custom the night sweeps day aside,
Leaving me with nothing
A thousand thoughts undefined.

Lying amidst the darkness
Striving hard to survive,
There has to be something
That must be keeping them alive.

A hope, a desire
A wish unfulfilled,
A dream, a fight
That is nothing
But a mist.

Falling for the devil’s pride
Keeping the goodness aside,
A soul is resurrecting
From the corpse
Burnt alive.

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Some are seen with closed eyes,
Some are open eyes’ delight.

Some carry hopes for future,
Some are nightmares from the past.

Some are rays of the rising sun,
Some are shadows of the dusk.

Some we wish to wipe from our memories.
Some are the companions in life’s journey.

Some nurture our soul,
Some break our heart.

Some take us through the territories unknown,
Some make us repeatedly walk the forgetful roads.

Some pull you up,
Some get you down,

Some are hazy,
Some are luminous.


Weapons of the strong hearted,
Escape of the weaker souls.

How limitless and timeless,
The bonvoyage of the soul,

Inseparable, unavoidable.
A mystery waiting to be resolved.

A sane world awaiting the transformation to insane reality.

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The only thing I love and hate with the same intensity- WORDS

They can make; they can break you
They can console; they can shake you,
They can penetrate through your heart
Or can flood through your eyes.
They are at times a reason of utter delight.
Else can suppress that little hope, which was just about to rise.
They guide you; they make you go astray.
OH! These are nothing just words.
Never take them to heart;
For most times they are something meant just to be said.

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Sitting silently in the corner of a locked box
Shackled, tortured;
And Burdened with guilt.
Broken by the
Intricacies of life.
Shaken by
Extreme plights.
Stolen by forces unknown.

It did try best to keep itself intact
On those rosy pink lips,
They look beautiful with it,
The world said.

It now awaits,
a miracle;
Awaits a presence
That will
free it from those steel ropes.
And give it an entirely new meaning.
It looks at that little ray of light
That will help it;
To again dance on those
Sometimes parted,
Sometimes joined
Yet inseparable beauties.

Life is nothing
It thought;
But a dead soul
Captured in a moving body
A mere meaningless existence,
Without that one little touch of it;
That holds the power
To win over everything it touches.

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There are times when you want to give up, give it all up.
You get weary of things and it gets difficult to take everything.

But still there is something that keeps you going

A small desire, a small wish

To feel the unfelt,
To see the unseen,
To hear the unheard.

How mysterious life becomes sometimes, how so unpredictable..
At times all you can do is just sit and wait for things to unfold.

How long will it take, you don’t know!!
How long will the suffering last? No clue!!
How long will it take for things to fall in place? I wonder!!
Will they, or won’t they ever? Hell knows!!

You just keep on pondering..deeper and deeper
The more you think, the more shitty life seems…
You try to remain calm, composed
But you lose it all one day!!

Wanna run, wanna hide,
But the truth is, there is no escape!!
You got to face it,

No matter how difficult or unbearable it is….

No matter you are standing in a world flooded with people,
But feels like standing in a no man’s land.

No matter you hear all voices around
and feel like they are coming from some place that is very very far from your reach…

But you got to take it all!!
That is the way it goes
You got to do it all

On your own!!

And that’s what help you come out as a better and strong person…..

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Not finding enough words to say...Just wanna wish a very Happy Birthday to you wherever you are..I am sure you must be way happy than being in the mortal world..Miss you and Love u lots...:) :) :)...

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It’s been quite some time I wrote something….I confess I was enjoying being lazy, not bad sometimes.

A lot has been happening around in past days. Blasts in Hyderabad, rapes, murders, Rail budget, Oscars, and now it will be union budget tomorrow. But I really don’t want to focus on any of these; a lot has been said and nothing substantial will be done.

I have been pondering from past few days about Choices. We are presented with many in our lives and what we choose decides the flow of our lives.

“Too often in life, something happens and we blame other people for us not being happy or satisfied or fulfilled. So the point is, we all have choices, and we make the choice to accept people or situations or to not accept situations.”- Tom Brady

We choose everything, right from soap, shampoo, cosmetics to friends, love, education and yes, sometimes to live also. What our present is, is the result of choices we had made in the past and our future will be determined by the combination of past and present choices.

Our choices are influenced by a lot of factors, our situations and circumstances, which many a times lead to making decisions and choices unwillingly. That is where the sad part comes, the part of blaming.

When things go right or as per our wishes, we never complain. But when things go the wrong way, we tend to blame people, situations or something or the other. The fact is we are solely and wholly responsible for the choices we make. No matter how much we crib, how much we complain, its only we who are to be blamed (I confess, I am no exception to it).

Many of us do crib a lot, that our life sucks and there is nothing going right. We blame luck most of the times. I remember a quote in this respect-

“What's the world's greatest lie?... It's this: that at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate.”

Fate might to a certain extent have a role to play, but in the end it is we who decide, it is we who choose. In this also we have a choice whether to listen to ourselves or to others. But when we make a choice, there is nothing we should regret about it later.

Taking responsibility is something we all run from and we always are looking for someone or the other to put all the blame upon, family, friends, fate, luck, God and what not. We can just find anything and everything to find an escape.

Our choices are what make a difference in our lives. We learn from them, we feel happy or sad because of them. We should therefore think properly and make the best possible out of all what is available to us. Sometimes we may have to take a different course from the usual prevalent norms, but when we choose to do that, we should always stand by it. Choices made thoughtfully and wisely may reduce the level of regret.

Here are some beautiful quotes on choices-

“In the end that was the choice you made, and it doesn't matter how hard it was to make it. It matters that you did.”- Cassandra Clare

“I won't tell you that the world matters nothing, or the world's voice, or the voice of society. They matter a good deal. They matter far too much. But there are moments when one has to choose between living one's own life, fully, entirely, completely—or dragging out some false, shallow, degrading existence that the world in its hypocrisy demands.- Oscar Wilde

“In the long run, we shape our lives, and we shape ourselves. The process never ends until we die. And the choices we make are ultimately our own responsibility.” – Eleanor Roosevelt

“I believe that we are solely responsible for our choices, and we have to accept the consequences of every deed, word, and thought throughout our lifetime.”- Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

“It is our choices... that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.”- J.K. Rowling

“Every person has free choice. Free to obey or disobey the Natural Laws. Your choice determines the consequences. Nobody ever did, or ever will, escape the consequences of his choices.”- Alfred A. Montapert

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I am not a photographer, nor do I intend to be...But these are just some shots I took at some point or the other..Sky has always attracted me, whether it is a clear blue sky or the one covered with a sheet of clouds...I have loved it all..

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“A little thought and a little kindness are often worth more than a great deal of money” – John Ruskin

Money Money Money !!! The world is going crazy after it. Everything has become secondary today in front of these pieces of paper. ‘Love’, is something we all search for, we all look for, and we all crave for. But I am confused with the present state of affairs where love, relations, friendship and even being together is directly proportional to money. People killing family members, friends, relatives, husband/wives for money (sometimes even for a very meagre amount).

I agree, money is important, rather very important in life, but it is not the ‘only’ thing or consideration to be with someone. I have seen girls making rich boyfriends for money, for expensive gifts and so on. And the day they stop spending money on them..well, end of the relationship. People who are so called ‘rich’, keep relation with those who match their financial status and look down upon or ignoring those who are below them in terms of money. Relations make or break with the amount of money someone holds in his pocket.

It has always amused me. Isn’t it strange? People have become so money minded, their wishes and desires have become so high and all they want is just money or be in contact with people who have it with them. Relationships, love, feelings, empathy are all things of the past now. Everything is losing their true value and meaning from the hearts of the people. All the things required to be called human vanish when it is about money. These words are dying a miserable death under those stacks of paper.

I am a believer in love. I don’t remember making friends or even talking to people in general based on their financial status. Money has always been secondary to me. Even when I think about marriage, money is never the prime factor. I guess I am educated enough to earn. I also don’t believe that only a man is responsible to feed his family. If a girl has earning capacity, then she can very well support a family after marriage on her own. When we cry so much for gender equality, then why not equality here?

It’s a very weird society we live in. I never understood this mindset of people based on money. Many won’t accept this fact but it is a bitter reality. Have our desires become so big, have our lifestyle and wishes reached to that level that we forget everything and remember just money? Money corrupts mind and a corrupted mind is never sane.

Money can buy a lot of things but not love and feelings. Can’t we all think of keeping the relationship alive in our hearts irrespective of the money someone has in his pocket or bank account?  Can’t we love and respect a person for what and how he is and keep aside his financial status? Can we stop the mental torture someone has to go through just because he doesn’t have what is required to be called ‘rich’? Can’t we value people over money? When we will understand money is just a piece of paper, we have it today; we may not have it tomorrow. People, if we value them, will be always with us, but not money. Better to invest time and feelings in humans rather than a piece of paper. Having a rich and a big heart is all what matters.

Waiting to see the time when we stop the ‘it’s all about money, honey’ thing.

“Money has never made man happy, nor will it; there is nothing in its nature to produce happiness. The more of it one has, the more one wants.”  - Benjamin Franklin

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Quotations are a gateway for the dreamers; breath to the lovers; hope to the hopeless; affirmation to the faithful; a reminder to the disillusioned; and a beacon to the wandering." - Anonymous

I have always enjoyed reading quotes a lot since I was a child. I always had some or the other diary where I used to write the quotes I loved. Some of those I lost (I don’t know where). I still have one with me and sharing 50 of my favourite quotes.

1)   “Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.”  - Oscar Wilde

2)   “Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.”- Dr. Suess

3)   “I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” - Maya Angelou

4)   “To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”- Ralph Waldo Emerson

5)   “In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel. It hurt when I lost each of the various men I fell in love with. Now, though, I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.”- Paulo Coelho

6)   “In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.”- Robert Frost

7)   “Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one’s definition of your life; define yourself.”- Robert Frost.

8)   “A heartful of you is just what i have. An eye full of you is just what I need.” Abhishek Gupta

9)    “I don't profess to be profound; but I do lay claim to common sense.”- Emily Dickinson

10)  “If you only read the books that everyone else is reading, you can only think what everyone else is thinking.”- Haruki Murakami

11)  “Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” – Mahatma Gandhi

12)  “The greatest sin is to think yourself weak.” – Swami Vivekanand

13)  “If you judge people, you have no time to love them.” – Mother Teresa

14)  “Silence is the most perfect expression of scorn.” – George Bernard Shaw

15)  “Don’t let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do.”- John Wodden

16)  " I am thankful to all those who said no. It’s because of them, I did it myself.”- Albert Einstein

17)  "Choose your thoughts carefully. You are the masterpiece of your life.” – Rhonda Byrne

18)  “If you want to awaken all of humanity, then awaken all of yourself.”- Lao Tzu

19)  “What is opportunity, and when does it knock? It never knocks. You can wait a whole lifetime, listening, hoping, and you will hear no knocking. None at all. You are opportunity, and you must knock on the door leading to your destiny. You prepare yourself to recognize opportunity, to pursue and seize opportunity as you develop the strength of your personality, and build a self-image with which you are able to live / with your self-respect alive and growing.”- Maxwell Maltz

20)  “We are what our thoughts have made us; so take care about what you think. Words are secondary. Thoughts live; they travel far.”- Swami Vivekananda

21)  “Accept everything about yourself. I mean everything. You are you, and that is the beginning and the end; No apologies, no regrets.” - Clark Montanas.

22)  “Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.”- Steve Jobs

23)   “You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it's always their actions you should judge them by. It's actions, not words that matter.”- Nicholas Sparks

24)   “I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me – I’m going to smile.” - Author Unknown

25)   “There is only one thing that that makes a dream impossible to achieve; the fear of failure.” – Paulo Coelho

26)  “Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage.” – Anais Nin

27)  “Love is the voice under all silences, the hope which has no opposite in fear; the strength so strong mere force is feebleness: the truth more first than sun, more last than star...” – E.E. Cummings

28)  “Although actions may speak louder than words, it is our intentions that reveal our soul.” – Hal Elrod

29)  “To become what we are capable of becoming is the only end in life. -Robert Louis Stevenson.” – R.L. Stevenson

30)  “We cannot change our past. We cannot change the fact that people act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.”

31)  “No matter what sort of difficulties, how painful experience is, if we lose our hope, that’s our real disaster.”- Dalai Lama XIV

32)  “If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving, you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all. And so today I still have a dream.”  - Martin Luther King, Jr.

33)  “Don’t wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.” - Mark Victor Hansen

34)  “Simplicity is about subtracting the obvious and adding the meaningful.” – John Maeda

35)  “People will suffer almost anything as long as it means they don’t have to change.” – Deepak Chopra

36)  “Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.” - Confucius

37)  “Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.” - Robert Brault

38)  “When you’re scared, when you’re hanging on, when life is hurting you, then you’re going to see what you’re really made of. And then you’re going to get the only respect in the world that matters: self-respect.” - Sylvester Stallone

39)  “It doesn’t matter who you are or where you come from. The ability to triumph begins with you. Always.” - Oprah Winfrey

40)  “Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.” – Leo Tolstoy

41)  “When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through.” – Nicholas Sparks

42)  “You cannot find peace by avoiding life.” – Virginia Woolf

43)  “That's the thing about demands to be felt.” – John Green

44)  “The more I know of the world, the more I am convinced that I shall never see a man whom I can really love. I require so much!” – Jane Austen

45)  “It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.” – William Shakespeare

46)  “Time is very slow for those who wait
Very fast for those who are scared
very long for those who lament
Very short for those who celebrate
But for those who love time is eternal” - William Shakespeare

47)  “The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, nor to worry about the future, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly.” – Gautama Buddha

48)  “If you look for perfection, you'll never be content.” – Leo Tolstoy

49)  “When love is not madness it is not love.” – Pedro Calderon de la Barca

50)  “We know what we are, but not what we may be.” William Shakespeare

I can go on and on as there are just so many of them. Hope you all enjoy these and yes, you are free to add your favourite ones. 

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